i kept telling myself, “i need to start blogging again”. with those words leaving my mouth, there was empty thoughts and feelings behind those words.
this past year i’ve I found myself entangled in love and lust. i found myself feeling outer body and watching myself in a cloud. a very interesting web I’ve been weaving.
i’ve been absent in the way i’ve been living. absent with my thoughts and feelings. absent about my actions.
neutral about everything. and it’s time to get in gear. even though i believe in the joy of doing nothing. that’s all that i’ve been doing.
i’m starting to feel a bit settled and bit more grounded and a bit more curious in creating.
by not working on my creativity, things feel flat, everything looks a little dull and I am struggling to feel inspired by anything.
the challenge i have at the moment, is that my curiosity in finding my creative moments seems harder than before. partly, because i lost that spark in certain aspects of creativity, plus my relationship with my creativity has changed a lot over the last year.
i have been feeling the need to express myself more than ever. i have the opportunity to re-evaluate how i approach my creative work and it’s purpose. i have so many thoughts to share.