i guess there’s a lot to say, but in the end there isn’t. because dear self it’s time to move past this.
i’ve talked about being absent earlier in the year and things have happened to me again to realize i still am, well, was. how crazy it is to realize this. i haven’t been in control like i thought i was. i was hopeful and ready to take on the world…but when shit hits the fan, sometimes you wallow in it and man, i have been wallowing in it and i smell haha. For people that know me personally, this doesn’t seem to be true. They will tell you im a strong, fierce, and passionate woman.
to be honest, I don’t talk about much and i’ve been keeping to myself. even when i look at these photos (they were taken a few months ago) i can see it, my emotions are written all over my face lol.
this is the best way i can describe everything:
sometimes, you trip and skid your knee and you let it heal and scab over, but then the urge to peel off the scab comes over you and then here you are back to letting it heal and scab over again. writing this out is eye opening and i truly understand what has been happening in my life, for the past year, past 2 years. let’s just say i’m ready to get up again and let my wounds heal and hopefully the scar fades away in time.
i’ve been really understanding the importance of self care and wellness and my energy. so much so that i feel a my inner self vibrating. does that make sense?
even if it doesn’t, just know i’m beginning to find myself again, to embrace myself, it’s such a great feeling to feel. never has starting a new year resonate with me, i’ve been making changes every day but the new year will mentally help me close this chapter in my life.
dear self, i’ll be taking care of you.