i can only talk about being in a cloud for so long. there more and new and better things to come my way. i am no longer going to dwell on the past and what could of been. i’ve had recent revelations about my self worth and this is empowering me to start a more mindful journey. in no particular order, the best things that happened to me so far.
the good, the bad and the lovely
- realizing my worth. i’ve decided that i wouldn’t be involved with anyone that would take me out of peace. i am no longer tolerating less than i deserve. i am a strong and passionate woman. i give more than i posses. and overcame battles i didn’t think i would win. it’s taken me a long time to get where i am and i won’t stand being around anyone or anything that makes me feel like im less than exactly what i fought to be.
- discovering i’m sick. it was crazy, i was sitting on the exam table and my doctor is listening to my symptoms, as i’m explaining i have newly developed allergies and just wanting medicine for it. i can see her eyes probing at me and she discovered a whole other level of what was really going on with me.
- fake people, fake love. the real squad. i have fallen out with a few people. there’s never enough to say…but there also isn’t anything to say. i am thankful of the friends and loved ones i do have now. That has always supported me through and through.
& the bad.
most of this past year has been sad memories in it and that’s okay and i had sprinkles of good memories. and it’s gotten me to the point that i no longer want to dwell on the sadness because it’s made me so much stronger. it’s time to finish those chapters and start a new. (written 8 months ago in november)
2019 started a bit rough but things changed for the better quickly…i haven’t had any bad/negative wins. so far so good.
“when writing the story of your life, don’t let anyone else hold the pen.” – drake